I hope I catch your attention to the most important message I would like to share:that love makes all the difference.
Humanity has survived many wars and plaques because of love.History has a huge record of how love transformed this world.Scientist have made mind-boggling inventions possible despite facing herculean challenge of facing one failure to another because of love.Same goes for poet ,musician , artist ,sportsmen,explorers, chefs, farmers ,businessmem etc.Love according to Rhonda Byrne is the most powerful force of all in this world.
So I call on to love to find way out of this crisis.I thank the love of this couple for their work despite the challenges they have faced that we have a life saving anti virus in our midst.
A shoutout to all essential workers ,volunteer and cheerful givers/sponors .There is great solace that others love their neighbors as themselves enough to give their time and expertise.
I remember in the book The Last Leaf by O.Henry it was also love that inspire an old artist to paint for a neighbor sick of pneumonia a leaf so realistically at the dead of winter so the later will have will to live.For that he died of pneumonia while the lad survive.
As I fend off the virus I focus on God's love alone as every human love I know have their shortcomings.Yes ,I have emotional baggages like many which I am still dissecting to know what hurts the most.
I wish I have the power to stop beating myself when relationship fails.I wish time heal all wounds as sages say.
If I remember how I tried my best to make my romantic relationships work but end up emotionally ,mentally ,and psychologically drained I am sure you'd agree heartbreak is as deadly as cancer.I do not know how many times I cried when I come to terms with myself that he was not just into me as I was into him.
There is a poem by Frida Kahlo entitled "if I have to say it " that pretty much picture my current emotional state.Allow me to share it below:
I’m not going to ask you to kiss me
Neither ask for forgiveness when I believe that you have done wrong or that you have made a mistake.
Nor am I going to ask you to hug me when I need it the most or to invite me to dinner on our anniversary.
I’m not going to ask you to go around the world
to live new experiences much less ask you to give me your hand when we are in that city.
I’m not going to ask you to tell me how pretty I’ am
even if it’s a lie or that you write me anything nice.
Nor will I ask you to call me to tell me how your day was or tell me you miss me.
I’m not going to ask you to thank me for everything I do for you,for you to worry about me when my moods are down and of course I will not ask you to support me in my decisions.
I’m not going to ask you to listen to me when I have a thousand stories to tell you.
I’m not going to ask you to do anything,not even to stay by my side forever.
Because if I have to ask you I do not want it anymore.
Love and rejection is but two sides of the same coin anyway. I have to reject the idea that a messy heartwrenching break up is scarier than being in a loveless long term romantic relationship or an unsatisfying career for example.I have to stop giving a fuck about other's opinion of me just to fit in.
This isolation has rekindled activities I love doing if I do not have to worry about paying the bills.I find out cleaning, gardening, hiking, swimming,movie watching ,reading and listening to music relaxing .
And if we do lock ourselves up for 14 days even of its completley nerve wrecking it is because we love to go back to a life where we are free to roam and show love at intimate distance withour getting paranoid we pass on a deadly germs.Hence we are willing to go all the trouble a quarantine makes.We are fighting to survive because there is too much to love in this world we live on that these temporary inconvenience is made bearable.