As I go to see my mom today, it’ll be a bag of mixed emotions again. That’s par for the course as of late and it won’t really be getting any easier as time goes on. My mom suffers from dementia amongst other things and is now in a round the clock care facility. My dad took care of her as long as he could and did a hell of a job, but her needs surpassed what he alone could provide...so here we are.
It’s not bad. The nurses and aides are super nice and she’s actually improving in certain ways. For example, she’s now taking steps again which she hadn’t done on her own in ages. That’s because they are working on strength and conditioning in her legs. Things like that help me look at the bright side of this messy disease.
She’s mostly happy. I’d say out of all the times I’ve gone to visit, I’ve only seen her have a bad day or two where she’s agitated and upset...which is good odds that I’ll take any day. It just bums me out greatly that I can’t have the conversations with her that I used to. Now it’s just simple small talk for the most part. Long stories lose her so I keep em short and sweet.
She tells me she loves me about 20 times a visit which is flattering, but I miss my mom. While I’m super lucky to still have her here, it’s just a shell of her former self. I think it makes me appreciate all the memories that much more I guess.
Either way, I’m looking forward to seeing her and spending some time with her today. I know you won’t see this but I hope you know just how much I truly love you. I am grateful for everything you have done as it’s helped shape me into who I am today.
After the visit, I’ll be taking the other special mom in my life out for some lunch. I told my wife that it’s her choice and I think I know where she wants to go today as she’s been talking about this one place a bit as of late.
I’m very lucky to have her as well. @reeseshara is not only a great mom to the kids and pets but in a sense...me as well. She motivates me to be a better person and gives me the drive I need to want to get us all to a better place. She is maybe a bit retarded as she chose me but whatever...today is not the day to question such decisions. Just gonna roll with it...
To the rest of you wonderful moms out there. I love you all. You all help make this world a better place and we are all appreciative of all the sacrifices you consistently make for the ones you love. Oh, and a very special Happy Mother’s Day to a couple of friends from the chain here. @roxane ...Congrats on the lovely new addition and I hope you have a wonderful day changing diapers full of mud! As for @evecab, we will let you slide on celebrating this day...almost there and that counts in my book!!! ❤️
Happy Mother’s Day to all!!!
Except the moms smoking crack and that kinda shit...