Black & White 35mm Film Photography and Milestones

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It's been a while since I last posted some photography on Steem. There's not really a reason why, I just haven't really felt like it. I did start writing about films again, and that's been nice. But today feels different.

Well, today, I'm focusing a bit too much on reflection and interests. Today isn't really a normal day, for some it might be, perhaps, but for me, I'm now 25. I feel like my life only really began about two years ago when I finally came out of my shell and discovered who I was and what I really liked; photography being one of them. Filmmaking being another.

While I went back to education, of which I'm really dreading these days, I have managed to slowly get some filmmaking work. It's fucking impossible to get film work. It's either pure luck or you know someone that can get you in -- in my case, it's knowing someone. Unfortunately I don't have the luck or skills to get in otherwise, haha.

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I feel like I've truly accomplished a lot in just two years, really. But at the age of 25 now it feels like I'm still so far behind everyone else. I feel like I'm at a huge disadvantage. Finances and career. Education has made this evident, surrounded by mostly younger people doesn't help. Makes you only want to escape through the window.

I feel like I need to throw in some coal and really push myself to catch up. But I'm not doing that. I feel I'll burn myself out and perhaps end up giving in again and resorted to old ways. And now there's plenty of things I want to discover and attempt as a result of finally coming out of my shell, I really don't want to go back.

I understand that 25 isn't old at all. It's still a very young age to be at. But I feel everyone has this assumption of where they'll be by a certain age, whether or not it's achieved is something different, but while I was just doing nothing and staying inside all the time those years back, all I did was move goalposts: "Next year I'll do this," and "or by that age I'll be there."

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I'd like to think that by the time I'm 26 I'll have the camera gear I strive to obtain so that I can push this interest into something that could become a career. So that I can travel and do my hobby while making some money to survive from it. I'd like to think that I'll have more work in film that isn't just a result of essentially being carried on the back of another that's worked significantly harder to reach where they are. I've learned a lot from the opportunities I've been given, and I hope that I can find ways to show that in my own independent way.

Eventually I'll get there. But not yet, it seems. I still have a long way to go until I feel I'll be truly content with my life. Either way, I know whatever happens, I have to keep pursuing photography.

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If I learnt one thing these 27 years alive on this planet is that doing what you love for a living is the path everyone should choose. We are bombarded with what we must and must not do everyday and at the end of the day we forget who WE are and where WE want to go. We walk paths other people told us to and that's bad.

My dream goal is to be able to travel across the globe and film skate clips for a living. Steem is the place I learnt that dreams can come true! I hope you achieve your goals and make your dreams come true man.

A 27 years old unemployed full-time Steemian

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I hope you achieve your goals and make your dreams come true man.

I wouldn't have it any other way. Part of why I'm a bit of a late bloomer is because of how stupidly stubborn I can be when it comes to pursuing things. I refused to go back to education before or get a regular job because I was making stupid amounts of money trading FX and stocks. I got bored of that though, I longed for something more and creative.

My dream goal isn't too different to yours, but I want to be a travel cinematographer; travelling the world and just shooting whatever for whoever my client is. It sounds like it's incredibly ambitious, but if you can get a portfolio going, it isn't too difficult to both attract clients and contact them yourself.

If I learnt one thing these 27 years alive on this planet is that doing what you love for a living is the path everyone should choose. We are bombarded with what we must and must not do everyday and at the end of the day we forget who WE are and where WE want to go. We walk paths other people told us to and that's bad.

I realised this from a much younger age. I hated the thought of getting a dead-end job and just working to survive. I still do. It baffles me that many are so content with working a job that ultimately leads to nowhere and offers no real sense of development and exploration. I can't imagine myself in, for example, retail or an office job. I'd lose my sanity.

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Me too man. I tried regular office jobs and just like you these things are not for me. I want to be outside, explore the world and use my creativity into things I love doing like skateboarding filming and editing!

I know there is a chance that my dreams can come true as I also know that nothing comes easy, you got to work for it so let's just go all-in and live the life we dream about!

P.S Thanks for the support bro, just saw your upvotes. Means a lot!
Take care and have fun yo!!!

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I tried regular office jobs and just like you these things are not for me.

The closest I've been is applying for a retail job, getting accepted, and then never turning up. I sent them an email and said something came up and moved across the country. Funnily enough, I did end up moving across the country for the sake of it. It was an interesting experience.

I know there is a chance that my dreams can come true as I also know that nothing comes easy, you got to work for it so let's just go all-in and live the life we dream about!

If you ever find yourself in London, let me know. It would be fun to hang out and shoot some shit. I don't skate, but I'd be completely open to shooting some stuff. Alternatively, @irial, my girlfriend, is from Barcelona so I should be spending even more time there. So if you're there at some point again and coincidentally I am too, same thing.

I may be a bit drunk now, but really: fuck this world. Fuck the limitations it brings. It should only serve as more motivation to move forward and pursue your interests. There's no point in letting it win. It's only worth trying harder and harder, refusing to accept any form of loss.

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fuck this world. Fuck the limitations it brings. It should only serve as more motivation to move forward and pursue your interests. There's no point in letting it win. It's only worth trying harder and harder, refusing to accept any form of loss.

Thanks for the motivation man. I totally agree! Even though my English are not that great you really understood what I am talking about! Fuck the limitations as you said.

Gonna let you know for sure if I am visiting London or Barca. Been to Barca twice so the 3rd time will be the last one. I will never leave!Hahaha. I love Barcelona!

Thanks for the awesome conversation man, really enjoyed it. We will talk again soon. It's time for me to sleep now, I am feeling super-exhausted! Have a great night bro.

Did/do you watch much/anime? I sometimes feel like anime with its ridiculously overaccomplished incredibly young protagonists (admirals of battlecruisers at 10, saving the world at 13, notice how most major characters are 15-17 etc XD) has a lot to answer for with people feeling depressingly underaccomplished after learning how to adult for a few years XD

Least you found your thing, some people get well into middle age before they find their thing and apparently some don't find any things at all D:

Make the most of your opportunity being carried on the back by your friend. One day when you're established you'll then be capable of carrying some other friend that wants to get into film ;D

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Did/do you watch much/anime? I sometimes feel like anime with its ridiculously overaccomplished incredibly young protagonists

I have/rarely do. But I never really enjoyed those typical styles. I preferred the older stuff that's a bit more serious.

Make the most of your opportunity being carried on the back by your friend. One day when you're established you'll then be capable of carrying some other friend that wants to get into film ;D

I'm hoping it doesn't take long to be able to stand up on my own feet and not rely on another. It would also be great to be able to give back and help others get in, in the event that I do manage to become entirely independent.

some people get well into middle age before they find their thing and apparently some don't find any things at all

I read a book called Man's Search for Himself that goes into anxiety, modern society, psychology and how we act the way we do. It goes into how people often live entire lives without really exploring themselves. They reach the end of their lives never knowing who they are, and realise they lived an entire life just chasing social statuses and trying to make others like them. Really opened my mind to a lot of things. Definitely recommend reading it. It doesn't read like a normal psychology book at all. No huge words and complex thinking, just: "Hey, your anxiety is caused by hundreds of years of change. Certain people act like this because of that, and others do this because of that."

Hello @namiks, thank you for sharing this creative work! We just stopped by to say that you've been upvoted by the @creativecrypto magazine. The Creative Crypto is all about art on the blockchain and learning from creatives like you. Looking forward to crossing paths again soon. Steem on!